The days worth living for

On those days when every stale morsel of food feels like a blessing,
When an unkempt bed from last night feels like a gift from The Gods, 
When you are so physically tired you finally understand what it means to 'crash into your bed', 
When you are so exhausted your brain shuts down even before your head hits the pillow, 
When you are so drained doing what you love that you have no strength to pine about what was and what could have been,
When you give so much of yourself to doing what you love, that you have none left to give to people and things that only hurt, 
When dating means showing up completely fried after a hard day's work simply because of the promise of food being involved, 
When you're in a train full of people who are too close for comfort,  and yet you sleep your soundest sleep, 
When you want to feel sad, when you want to weep but simply don't have the strength to do so, 
When you can afford to pay a premium for a first class train pass, but have no shame in sitting cross legged on its floor like you never had a class to begin with, 
When you don't have the time or effort to spare for silly good morning and good night messages, and when someone tries to simply 'catch up' you let out a slight chuckle because you realize you're going way to fast,
When sleep is just a blink that lingered too long on your eyes, 
Those are the days worth living for. 

Bukowski has said, "Find what you love and let it kill you.", I think this is what he meant.